Chub!

ahh I seriously can not get enough of my chubby baby! I still am in shock I have such a huge child, but I am loving his chubby body!!! the only problem is along with the chubby body comes the "fat baby" appetite, nursing every 2 hours is kinda annoying, its a good thing I love him as much as I do.

Its been 5 weeks, crazy hey? 5 weeks already! and in those 5 weeks he has gained a ton, he's already 12 pounds and lost way to much of his hair he came out with. But he is still as adorable as ever and to make it even better a week ago we got SMILES!! There is nothing better than being able to talk to your baby and have them look back at you and smile, it makes all the long nights, ok even the 2 hour feedings worth it! and NO its not gas.. i got that comment a few to many times after saying he smiled that early, I even got a little video to prove it 100% was NOT gas smiles

These are Brenners newborn pics I took, so he pretty much has doubled in size since I took them, but I haven't posted them yet on my Blog. I need to take some new ones of his chubby body that I love so much!!!!

So in the same post about my Chubby baby I thought id post Hailyns newest pictures. She has an obsession lately with playing "dance school" so she had picked out her own outfit (with help from Rylee) and was very proud of it, so we ran outside for 2 min and snapped a few pics. I thought they were so cute, cuz Hailyn is so dang cute, that I didn't even touch up or edit them at all. I need to register this child for dance class!!

My goal now is to get Rylee to let me take her picture so I actually have some to post of her..

Almost 3 weeks

I cant put into words how much I love my little baby boy! Brenner is amazing, and such a perfect addition to our family! He's the perfect mix of Rylee, Hailyn, Jordan and also Jared (he looks a lot like Jareds baby pictures do)- so needless to say he really is a mix of everyone.
After the hard pregnancy and stressful experience having him plus the after "recovery", I look back and realize i'd go through it over and over again just to have him here.

We couldn't love him more, there truly is something about baby boys that are super special. I really can't get enough of him. Plus the girls are amazing with him, I couldn't have been more blessed in that area. Hailyn is so easy going she could care less that he is here and not jealous in the least bit. She loves to give him kisses and asks to hold him once in a while and be my little helper when I need things for him. Then Rylee is the perfect mommy, she would sit and hold him all day long if she could and I swear he knows its her holding him, he usually falls right asleep and is so calm when she has him. They love their little brother, its so nice to not have any jealousy with him here. My girls have been amazing, its wonderful and a huge help!
The only thing that could make this perfect would be if Jordan didn't have to be in Halifax working, but i'm very proud of Jordan and the sacrifices he is making for our family. I have the hardest time being away from my kids for just a few hours let alone months, so I cant even imagine how hard it is for him to be gone, especially now with Brenner and how much babies change every week.
But were proud of him and thankful for all of his hard work. SOON the summer will be over and he will be back home, it truly is MUCH better having him here!

 you cant kiss Brenners cheek without him thinking he's getting food and trying to eat so we got a good kiss!

 He looks SO much like Hailyns baby pictures here 

Brenner Jordan- the "story"

Well he's here!! I know its a little behind as he came June 9th, but he's HERE!! and we couldn't be happier, he is such a perfect little angel, and we couldn't possibly love him any more than we do. He is just the perfect addition to our family, and so far such a perfect baby.

Delivery was stressful, they hooked me up to the machines and his heart beat was gone.. SO scary! the nurses were panicking and calling the delivery doctor in who started talking c-section so an iv was stuck in my arm right away just in case. The worst part was that I wasn't even really in labour at that point, my contractions were barely there (nothing different than they had been the last 2 months), but after that scare they moved me into a delivery room at 8:30 and sure enough contractions started happening close together and hurt terrible, I guess my body knew this baby needed to be out!
Worst part was the doctor and the wonderful doctor who gives epidurals were in doing a c-section so no drugs for me, not even morphine since his heart beat was dropping they couldn't even give me that. Im a WUSS, not afraid to admit it so it was the worst thing ever. Or well i should say the worst 7 mins of my life ( i guess that really isn't to bad). But at 9:57 I knew I had to push and at 10:00pm my water broke and at 10:03 out was our little angel. Good thing the nurse was there to catch him because the delivery doctor wasn't yet..
Brenner came out making his mark in the world, and came out peeing, not crying or upset at all, just super happy and content. Which is how he's been ever since he came out, he's such an amazing baby.
He was 8 lbs 8 oz 20.5 inches long, and has been one hungry boy since coming out, he's definitely going to be nice and chubby!!

The girls LOVE him, Hailyn actually could care less he's even here, she just gives him kisses and hugs and every once in a while says "let me hold him" and Rylee is a professional baby holder and wants to cuddle him all day long. She's such a great little mommy! And timing couldn't have been better, Jordan flew in tuesday june 7th at 10:30 and Brenner was born Thursday June 9th at 10:03. I couldn't have done all this without him, and i'm SO happy he's been able to take the time away from work in Halifax to be back home with us.

And then for the "After" delivery....

At the hospital they ended up pumping me full of 5 L of extra fluids.. not ideal for anyone since your body has a ton of excess fluids they need to get rid of anyway.
So my feet, ankles, legs, fingers, lets say pretty much everything started swelling up and hurting. I had no clue it wasn't really normal, and then I wasn't able to breathe and it felt like I had a HUGE weight on my chest making it impossible to get any air. So I went to the doctor got an x-ray found out I had fluid building up in my lungs and he told me I needed to get into the ER and offered an ambulance, I decided just to go in on my own with Jordan driving me.
I guess I should have chose the ambulance since I got in they took my vitals and started calling doctors and "teams" to the Code room that they rushed me off to. Scariest most stressful thing ever! But I guess when you cant breathe and have next to no pulse and are seconds away from passing out they don't mess around.  I had 4 nurses sticking things to my body, portable x-ray machines, ultrasound machines and pretty much everything stuck to my body. They ended up giving me a shot of something in my IV making me release 5 lbs of fluid while I was in that room, plus at least another lb or 2 after I got moved into another room.
I still don't feel wonderful yet and back to my normal self, my chest still is sore among not feeling great for other reasons. But thankfully Jordan was able to move his flight around and stay longer than we had planned to be here to help out. I guess just one day at a time is how were going to have to take it, and hopefully soon I can be back to feeling normal again, and hopefully somehow forget the stress and toll being in the hospital had on me. Its definitely not fun having a brand new baby, 2 other little kids at home and then hearing words like "life threatening situation" and "code room" ect..
But in all reality I look at my beautiful baby and would go through every bit of pain and do it all over again just to have him here. Knowing he is healthy is what really matters and I couldn't be happier to have him part of our family. Things definitely feel much more complete having a little boy added to our girls.

All 3 Babies

I swore to myself I wouldn't post again until the baby came, BUT after our little picture shoot today I really needed to add just one more.

Rylee has been my amazing photographer throughout this pregnancy, and takes my weekly belly snapshots. I do realize my stomach has not got bigger in about 2 months, just lower. This baby really does feel bigger than my girls did, and i'm hoping it's just because my stomach did not pop out as big so there is less room for him to move inside there. So here's my 38 week picture:

Once I was done having Rylee take a few pictures Hailyn ran over to where I was standing and said "Hailyns turn for pictures of my baby"- and she stood there posing all by herself, pretty much copying what I just did. I had the hardest time actually taking the pictures because it was so funny, yet Hailyn was not joking around, she really wanted pictures took of her "baby belly". SO here are Hailyns maternity pictures, were just not quite sure how far along she is.. 

And then HORRAY I got Rylee smiling, only because she wanted a picture with her baby, but still she's smiling!!! her mouth may be full of candy she's trying to hide, but I still think they turned out cute!

SO there are all 3 of our babies. Lets hope mine comes soon and pictures can be took of him outside my belly, and lets hope Hailyn soon understands that there really is not a baby in her belly. Any time I ask her to pick something up lately her response is "I cant, I have a baby in my tummy"- and yes she gets that exact line from me! But she uses the "baby" in her tummy all the time as an excuse to not do things. She really is quite the hilarious 2 year old.  A bit confused, but still really entertaining! 

Cursed!!!

i've decided that having a baby 13 days early is maybe more a curse than anything, especially when you plan on having more! I'm pretty sure all along I have mentally thought that just because Hailyn was a nice child and decided to come early that the one(s) to follow would do exactly the same..
Well today is 13 days till my due date and this darn baby is a bit to comfy inside me. How is it possible though to have constant contractions for the last almost 3 months and make it this far? He better just be holding off for his daddy to come home ( 3 SLEEPS!!!), because next wednesday his time is up! I really don't care what it takes, this little guy needs to be welcomed into this world- and June 8th sounds like a wonderful birthday to me!!
Being 38 weeks pregnant i'm pretty sure sucks for anyone who's been there- with the exception of your first baby, because after having more than one, no one out there has the right to complain with their first baby (unless its twins) because first pregnancies are absolutely amazing, you look good, you feel good and everything is wonderful.
But back to what I was trying to complain about- being 38 weeks and home alone with 2 kids is super hard. Sleep is impossible with how sore your body is, and then to have your 2 year old decide that every single morning she is going to wake up at 6:32, yup I meant to type that, 6:32 not 6:30, or 6:45 but 6:32 every single morning is just to much right now! I really feel like I will get more sleep once this little guy is out because I will finally have my body back!

But since I have decided his time is almost up, I am really really excited to meet him and get to hold him in my arms instead of my belly! Its been a pretty stressful pregnancy, and a few times I really wasn't sure if id make it full term, so despite being so sore and unable to sleep I am very thankful to have a healthy baby inside me that I know can now come out at any point and be more than ok! Especially since all he's doing in there now is getting fatter!!

AND i'm just as excited for Jordan to be back for a bit in 3 sleeps! I think every time Hailyn talks to Jordan on the phone she asks him either "why you no come home" or "why you in Halifax still", so they are in definite need of some major daddy time!!!

So heres to crossing my fingers and hoping that my next post is all about baby _________ (yup he has no name yet)

HUGE!

Yep! I'm huge.. which is soooo fun..

Being on the final stretch is pretty much the one thing that keeps me able to be up and going.. Oh ya, and the fact Jordan's gone and there are 2 little stinkers that still need a mom!

You hear all the time about super terrible pregnancies, and I always thought to myself "as if it could really be that bad"- well holy slap in the face i'm getting and a huge reality check that yup it is possible to have 2 amazing pregnancies and then the 3rd that is completely different and horrible from the start to finish. Maybe its my bodies way of saying, 3 is enough!! Cuz at this rate, thats all my body will be having to deal with, I couldn't imagine having to do this all over again one day.

Clearly the timing was NOT ideal, I never ever ever ever (how about one more?) EVER would have planned on having a baby the middle of June with the job Jordan has, yet apparently all I have to do is think "maybe we should have another baby one day" and the next month, surprise I get one now!

Don't get me wrong, I am now very excited for this little guy, a boy seems like a whole new adventure, and almost like having your "first" all over again after having 2 girls. With all of the problems he is already causing me I have a feeling a boy is going to be lots of work!
The sleepless nights, the doctor telling me to go on "bed rest" because of the terrible cramping and contractions, the inability to literally get out of bed in the middle of the night when i'm being called I know is very soon going to be all over and all very worth it! Thats my way to try and stay positive right now when i'm here and Jordan's gone, it will all be over soon and our little family of 4 will soon be 5 and we couldn't be more excited!!

THANKS!

This is what my "belly" pictures look like when my 4 year old takes them for me.. 

But hooray, 33.5 weeks.. not to many weeks left! 

THANK YOU everyone who took the time to leave their input and advice on my last post. I guess all along I never really did clue into what a big decision it was, so all of the different opinions really did help! From talking to people and reading comments it really is being done WAY more than my doctor planted in my head. There is a ton of boys still getting it done, and quite a few parents choosing not to. So it is less stressful knowing that regardless of the decision it will be the right one, since both options are technically the right one, and neither is wrong!  I really do though appreciate the time everyone took to comment on here, or on my FB or even to message me personally about it. Having the input from people I know and trust always helps when making decisions! I still am not 100% sure, and i'm just thankful that I have a few more weeks to decide.. or well make JORDAN decide!! because that is the best decision I can make- to let this baby's daddy decide what to do with his boy parts! 

I just thought everyone should know that last night Hailyn told me the baby in her tummy is getting big, so things with her "baby" are going great and she's still feeling good. Although last night she also told me she couldn't find it and she was feeling her tummy looking for it.. Hopefully she realizes soon there isn't a baby in there, and isn't to confused when mine comes out and hers doesn't! But Hailyn also thinks she is a cat and crawls around "meowing" more than anything.. So maybe I just have a strange child?

She also found Jordans City of Calgary License and carries it around with her telling me all the time "Thats Hailyns Daddy"- I guess thats her way of showing she misses him 

And then there is Rylee... Oh what do we say about Rylee... Maybe the ...'s say it all?!?

 She's emotional,  moody, messy, and thinks it's her job to discipline Hailyn, but all in all she's still a great 4 year old that has been helping me a lot lately. She's had a few crying spells (mostly at night) for her daddy and needs him to come home. But talking to him a few times a day on Facetime has been helping a lot with that. She's going to be a BIG helper when this baby comes. For being as little as she is she actually is really good with babies and loves them!! And after all this is "her" baby boy in my tummy

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It's not fun not having Jordan around, but were trying our best to keep as busy as my body will possibly allow right now and do what we can to make the time go by fast!